Britney Spears has spoken out about her 13-year conservatorship as she details how her father ‘controlled her body and her money’ and ‘hurt’ her with ‘fat’ jibes.
The American singer, 41, hit out at 71-year-old dad Jamie in her explosive new memoir, titled The Woman In Me, which is set to be released later this month.
In excerpts obtained by People, the star opened up about the sickening control her family subjected her to.
Britney heartbreakingly conceded: ‘Feeling like you’re never good enough is a soul-crushing state of being for a child.’
In the upcoming release, Britney writes: ‘I’d been eyeballed so much growing up. I’d been looked up and down, had people telling me what they thought of my body, since I was a teenager. Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back.
‘But under the conservatorship, I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.
‘If I thought getting criticized about my body in the press was bad, it hurt even more from my own father. He repeatedly told me I looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it.’
She continued: ‘Feeling like you’re never good enough is a soul-crushing state of being for a child. He’d drummed that message into me as a girl, and even after I’d accomplished so much, he was continuing to do that to me.
‘I became a robot. But not just a robot — a sort of child-robot. I had been so infantilized that I was losing pieces of what made me feel like myself.’
The star concluded: ‘Thirteen years went by with me feeling like a shadow of myself. I think back now on my father and his associates having control over my body and my money for that long and it makes me feel sick…
‘I didn’t deserve what my family did to me.’
Jamie took control of his oldest daughter’s life and finances in 2008 after some highly publicized mental health struggles.
It began as a temporary arrangement but became permanent by the end of the year.
In the years that followed, Britney was deemed well enough to work in what the former estate conservator called a ‘hybrid business model’ in court papers, but not well enough to control her personal life.
The estate controlled who her friends were, where she could go and ‘logged her every purchase down to a drink from Starbucks,’ according to The New York Times.
Britney also told the court she had been forced to use birth control and take medication against her will.
During one court appearance, she told the judge, ‘Ma’am, my dad and anyone involved in this conservatorship, and my management, who played huge roles in punishing me when I said ‘No’ [to going on tour] — Ma’am, they should be in jail.’
Sources close to Jamie said he is not concerned if he gets ‘trashed’ in her book because she has already spoken out about him disparagingly on social media, according to TMZ.
Britney made headlines in regards to her father a year ago, when she took to Instagram saying, ‘I really felt like my dad was trying to kill me and I hope he burns in f***ing hell.’
Jamie has kept a relatively low profile after he was suspended as the head of the conservatorship in September 2021, a move made permanent two months later.
